Good Bye 2008 ~~

As this year is coming to an end, I did some thinking and reflecting of my year in 2008.
This has been a tough year for me.
Sudden death of dad…
Marriage problem…
Till this day I still grief and mourn of losing my beloved father.
Till this day, Mike and I are trying hard to fix our marriage.
Yet, this year has given me the opportunity to understand and see the real me. ..

I often find myself in constant search for something; searching for my dream, religion, materials things or even someone to fill the emptiness that consumes me.
I am grateful to learn and understand that I was in constant search for something not knowing the only place I ever need to find is within my own self… ……
I’ve also realized what matters most is the incomparable and unconditional love of God, my family and my husband that I neglected and uncared for most of the times.

In reflection, if I found myself unsatisfied, I shall remind myself to enjoy this moment of my life and be grateful to God for granting such a wonderful life to me…. I am grateful to have a pair of healthy & cute children, great husband and family & friends who constantly provide support and love to me.

With that being said….
Does this make me wiser??
No, I am still trying to uncover the mystery of life, the unknown.
Does this make me a better person??
No, I am my own enemy, a walking contradiction….…

But, for sure, 2009 is gonna be better than 2008.
I will make it so….


Jennie 12.31.2008 (Now i am off to new year party.... )